Raindrops Keep falling On my Head....

Raindrops keep falling on my head
And just like the guy whose feet are too big for his bed
Nothing seems to fit
Those raindrops are falling on my head, they keep falling

Yea, almost anyone of us would have heard this magnificient piece by B.Bacharach...one of my all time favourite composers. I love his songs.
but the way Billy Joe Thomas sings it, I could just dance in the rain with it.
like how I did this morning
:)

From a distant...
a sparkle...
a shine
a tranquil drop ...
it first feels cold over my skin
and then it becomes warm...
reminds you of the days of 5 and 6
where the world was a splendour
and carefree
the gentle
calm
soft drop
of rain

They say, the weather affects your mood.
What if I told you, maybe your mood affects the weather instead.
Hence you make what your surrounding is.

It certainly does. NEWTON's 3Rd Law... Your emotions results into some force that produces some action... hence, there is a reaction to it... but in this case, it is not Equal and opposite...

Especially for those with one of those strong auras around them,
able to change moods of others,
make others smile
or even cry.

I love the rain...
always have
Ironic though, my nickname at school is Sunshine...
but i love the morning rays of sun too...
but not as much as the soft, gentle raindrops on my window...


I love this next part of the song too:

But there's one thing I know The blues they send to meet me, won't defeat me It wont be long till happiness steps up to greet me

For many, rain is a nuisance ... but it depends how we make use of the challenges in our lives...
.
If a storm that builds up from excessive rain;the element I myself love so much,
but induces pain and anguish...
something that may be troublesome

worrisome

tiresome..

but if we keep our heads held up high...
and walk through the storm...
and reach the brighter side
happiness steps up.

Its the spirit of wanting to make a change and the courage to do so...
may it be
for something you love
or someone you care
or just for the plain passion in life.

Raindrops keep falling on my head
But that doesn't mean my eyes will soon be turning red
Cryings not for me
Cause I'm never gonna stop the rain by complaining
Because I'm free
Nothings worrying me. ;)

I am free...
have always been free
and will always be

As long as I Breath.
as long as I can See
Hear, Taste
and most importantly....
FEEL..
I'll let my heart flutter free
for all the world is a
wonder.


And I hope to keep making everyone around me
feel the same...

It has been raining almost daily since Tuesday.
I like it.
Although my mum and maids complain that nothing is drying up.
I hope I have enough clean clothes ;)

Angels from above... and the Heavenly bodies... Thank you.

~peace out~
aletha kavindra

The Next Day

well, Yesterday was over... still the same.
:)

I like it this way. and hope it stays. If I sound awfully vague, I am sorry I cannot elaborate further....
its a secret.
and secrets are meant to be kept hidden...

By the way, a good sign of revelation an Old Friend of mine came across...
http://keespy.blogspot.com/2009/08/attraction.html

Everyday is a new beginning... we just learn from the past and look up for the future...

Live-life-Love...
my way.

What is up tomorrow?

Hey hey!
The Prefectorial Board AGM was held last Friday, and that is it. Official obligations as a student leader is over... and I am going to be soooooo restless now on!

Back to square 7!

But the official handover ain't done yet , though... I hope the "little ones" learn fast!
:)

I remember this familiar scenario almost 2 years ago... the same time I had too much time and ended falling in love... it was an experience.
Falling in and out of that game , is not really my field to play, I seem to be bad at it. So my second husband... STPM here I come! Wedding on 19th November 2009... wish me luck.

anyway, today feels too good to be true, so as usual, I doubt this "euphoria" will last till tomorrow.
STPM trials staring next Tuesday too!
MeRDeka eh?
hahaha

Good luck fellow upper Sixers... and happy marking to our poor teachers too!
we'll get you all some coffee sachets too...


(back to studying 9 yet to cover Physics chapters)

<3 my family <3 my besties <3 my school <3Human Kind

It Does Not Have to End Like this...

I cannot bear it anymore...
its been 2 months ... and it seems almost like forever.
Not being able to speak, see, smile, walk or even sleep like how I always did , is killing me.
and you know why.... because of you.

I can't be entirely sure if you even read my blogs anymore. I could have easily sent you an email an explain all of it again... but , this is the best way right now...

Yes, you didn't want that kinda relationship with me. Eventually, I too grew out of that idea.
BUT, boy... YOU ARE MY BEST FRIEND!!!
and however dysfunctional we have seemed in the last few months, life just seems empty without you right now.

only two songs keep playing in my head, and I wonder if its the same for you ...
cause, life does suck without you....








Don't leave just like that....
we did have a lot of fun...
its the tears and joy that brought us closer ...........

I am missing you, my dearest friend on Earth.

I lost a Friend...

Today, the 29th of July 2009,
happens to be the birthday of 2 close friends....but sadly, about 11 hours ago, my baby brother, my friends, my schoolmates,the Eagles of ACS .... and I , lost a very dear person.

Tevindiran.....



Boy... YOU RAWKED !
you were one of those becons of joy and humour at times when many of us could not even think of the simplest jokes in PR hours.

I first knew you as a close to my lil' bro... and then when I joined the Prefects last year, you were there to look out for me from all those big bullies...

Exactly a year ago, we were grouped into the same LTC group--Da Draculas...
I remember, it took us- D, Swa, Thin, you and even I to come up with a plan for our Nostalgia Night sketch.
Eventually, Tev, you came up with your very own remake and improvisation of Dracula itself....
it was an experience playing the Dracula's wife and "turining you into a vampire''

The cheers we shouted under the "bunian" tree... the 80 year old ceilings that dropped near the Chem Lab and even the exhaution that we all went through together during the 48 hour "torture" during LTC on the 27-29th August last year....

It was FUN!

then we became the seniors and the leaders for the Board.
Yet, you were there to put a smile on my sad face at certain days... and make me laugh my guts out with the jokes I claimed were "lame"... but I laughed, didn't I....



Remember on the 5th of July, at my house this year... you have always been a very important friend of my brother and a good one too...it was hillarious seeing you "pole dance" on the birthday boy aka. my bro...I even dropped of the sofa.

Although we were not so close friends, I knew you as a person rich with creativity and had one of a kind of an imagination! you loved writing and came up with the strangest ideas.

Before our Canteen Day, i remember tasting your Honey Chicken Burger. most of us seriously thought you will make real good money selling them nightly... Was planning to suggest it for your post-SPM months.

Now its too late to say that, isn't it ? =(

I also remember some where this February, you came asking me for advise, on your 13 SPM subjects....LOL...
and also the fact that the school was strictly prohibitted you from taking them. hahaha....the funny part was that, you were so determined to go on your own will , hence you decided not to sit for your Mid Year's Exam ...
You were bold!

and I said, I got your back, tevin....
I was worried, actually...

During the December Holz... I am soooo sorry for ignoring you at times ...

Now that you are gone... nothing I say can take back for the times I nagged at you, nor the times i raised my voice towards you... certainly not even the time , that is just 3 days ago, when I was upset with you and the geng for what you all did that evening. I was trying to be the big sister, after all, it was my duty as Grandma of the Board.
This Grandma...never really like your Girlfriend, Ms Bike.... :(

but I'm quite glad, that on Sunday morning , we were cool...
Gosh, I still don't belive that I cannot hear another piece of joke nor tease you back ...

Dude,
LTC 09 was incredible! and you were a big part of it...

and the happy moments we shared,not just as a whole big Board of prefects , but as a big happy family, will always , and i mean it, will ALWAYS... be cherished and remembered.

It still hasn't sunk in to me that you are really gone... , but a huge part of me, says that you moved many of our worlds...

you would have been a best-seller writer, probably even the next Chaplin. haha.

I heard you wrote a book.... I am already booking for it...



Rest In Peace , tev.........

~kavitha~


.... the ACS Prefects and our fellow ACSIANS....:

WE WILL MISS YOU!

Time Flies when you think The clock Will Stop

There are so many posts that I have been dying to write up for the last 4 weeks, but for some weird reason, I just seem to get stuck to my FB or busy researching stuffs for my upcoming projects every time I sign in.

Well lets see...
MUET is over, next is IELTS on the 8 th, which will also be the GBP farewell at school. sigh... why do I always end up skipping GBP's fun events!
MUET wasn't that good a news for me, a little disappointed, probably I deserve it for not really making good use of the practice exercises we were given.
But, our GBP EXCO term is nearly over ... :)
but I will certainly miss working with our "Mother-of-all-ACS-mothers", in some way or another.
I must thank her a lot too, for being very supportive of this lone ranger from TCS in the foreign world of ACS .

Handover for the Scouts Div II will be done somewhere next week, and so will for the super water club of ours, which will be after the Swimming Gala this week.
Haih... swimming gala, I don't think I will be able to swim for more than 2 events this year...
PS competition in KL is on the day after the interschool relay event :( (pstt to all OLDHAM, TAGORE STILL RULES!)

SIKES!

And guess what, LTC too....
3D2N of MEMORABLE 52 hours for our darling Probationers... (PROVE YOURSELVES worthy ,if you are reading this)

So after 27th July, is it full swing with maximum torque and power and consistency for my current "love affair" ? (pls do not get confused)

Did I mention, that he-that-should-not-be-named is quite out of my way...

He was a good friend...a very close associate to my heart too... I will cherish the very close platonic friendship we shared. What ever it is, I will remain his friend, even if he gives disregard to it now. I will be there. There to support him. The difference now is that,my support will not be as conditionless as those old days back, it will be like that of yours .... haha*...
I will only be in deed to him when he asks me to... which I bet, he will never(anybody daring to take my bet, and prove me wrong, I'll belanja you one roti canai and teh tarik). {That's how low a bet i put to it !! hehe}

It is very much a relief too... I don't need to look out or go that extra mile for him... and it is easily reserved for all my loved ones who truly ,undoubtly and deeply care and love me .
Oh yea, I have maybe an extra minute a day for myself too ;)

I found love somewhere along the lines and that supports me, gives me more space to spend with this young man who has chosen to be part of my life...

Luckily the he-who-shall-not-be-named wasn't per sued to more than just friends more than a year ago. To come to think of it, it wouldn't have lasted too... it is not because there's just too much too see and too much to learn about the rest of the world... It is mainly because, we were not really that right for each other, two very stubborn people put together where, one is wise, educated and too busy , while the other supposedly just the other way around(which was so totally false and self proclaiming), nothing could have ever worked... well we all have our own right to our own perspectives in life too... but let me remind you, it only is true if you stick to it!
after all,he was never that into me either, what can this poor girl offer right ? *eyes rollfrom left-up-right, shakes head with a loud sigh!*

Friendships grow, and the path of them growing can be through a puddle of mud, tripping into a ditch , slipping down the cliff , running through pastures of marygolds, flying through a rainbow or maybe even dancing in the clouds.... it is all a matter of growing and learning from the best and the worst of its times....the end result.... nah, it doesn't really matter I guess, to some people that is ....

Anyway, I am confident to say, most of my friendships have grown, true faces known, defects noticed, weaknesses realised, appreciation of each others' strengths and downfalls, cherishing the best in life and thanking God for diversity. Yet, keeping bonds strong and making the best out of every moment in it.
Referring to Alanis's song.... I think this transition is over...

Thank you, he-who-should-not-be-named, for reminding me something that I nearly had forgotten, expect the worst in something but hope and have faith for the best.... and FYI , dear readers, I don't think they neutralise each other..... FAITH IS ALWAYS STRONGER!

So, with hope in my heart and prayer in my mind, the rest of the year will be K OK!
Prefects, Girl Guiding, Swimming, ACSIANS, 6AE ans, Juniors, Probationers, Best friends, crushes, ex crushes, "ex best friend(to-so-so )", my aldehydes and ketones, the PS speech , STPM, trials, IELTS, my applications, my family, my doggies, and the three babies of mine, the birds that destroy my car,SND my love, my TKD and everything in my life and all those around me... I WISH US ALL THE BEST ! and carpe Diem!

In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: it goes on.

~Robert Frost~

Which tunnel? The one behind, the one with the silver door, the one with golden gates or the calestial,star-decored arched entry????

"Never underestimate what you are about to do or what you are to face."

That is something that has slowly slipped off my mind lately.
GOSH
Second day of Upper Six Mid Year exams was today. AND IT WAS A BOMB!First time have I ever equated it to such a term, no, a bomb is quite an understatement, it was like "little boy" that hit Hiroshima. CHEMISTRY--my favourite subject, I thought I would make a career out of it too.
Maybe I have to admit , I didn't really prepare well for it--for STPM standards that is :' (

My head aches terribly, too(for quite a number of days already--not the normal migraine or sinusitis throbbing) and I really shouldn't be staring at my desktop's screen and writing all this. Haha,what the heck with do's and don't s for today.

About a week ago, I had finally decided to pursue the "path much taken" --- MEDiCINE!
The old ambition. The old dream. The days of taking my mum's stethoscope and playing with my dad's stilt lamp.Its amusing to look at my "younger" self that always wanted to become a doctor. For a person who practically grew up in hospitals and clinics, baby sat by nurses,it is not queer to see such an outcome as a desire for a future.

There was even a time, I think I was 12, that I told the whole world " I want to be a pediatric ophthalmologist!"
So naive of me....because, nowadays I look at people who are overly ambitious in becoming neurosurgeons and physicians, and I tell myself ---Go get your MD or MBBS first!

Then, something turned it all around.... I was 15 and I got my hands on Dan Brown's Angels and Demons(i have a bad feeling the movie will not be as good as the book...), and "ta-dah", a sudden inspiration in becoming a phycisist. And all I saw myself was accelerating particles to almost light speeds....changing the world.

Hey, it was not just an impulse though. I had researched it well, contacted renowned scientists and this forum really helped www.physicsforums.com. The people there were really kind and gave really good advise. Made many good friends too.


So, I had or maybe still have a dream, a dream to create the "greenest" , renewable, free, abundant energy.... haha, sounds more ideal than any sci fi fiction.... but imagine, if we have this free, green gigantic amount of energy , will it not solve most of the world's problems....

Then, "earthly worlds" came into the picture too.. from a very young age, I was always fascinated by the stars and the cosmic.... so I had another fork on the road, if its physics till phD.... where to? material sciences? astrophysics? molecular physics????!
...
but...{yea, my favourite word -_- }the question was still:
~Phycisist or
~Physician????

the confusion has been going on since Form 4. Thank God I made up my mind in what Pre u programme I should do way before its due time of decision(STPM aka HSC Malaysia it became).

But I'm still at the biggest junction of my life:
-MEDCINE
or
-PHYSICS Major->Phd



And last Tuesday, I told everyone , it am to save lives...
I initially implied Medicine as my career to be... but then again... I'm having my millionth thought on it now!

Creating free energy and minimising energy loss or maybe even creating machines to travel in the speed of ligt could answer a lot of questions in humanity...and eventually save lives???



Watched History Channel's Universe series yesterday.... haha...Physics and I are like two old lovers "unattended" yet unforgettable to each other, where your heart just thrives for it again (wei, not like I know how that really feels....)
I was really thrilled watching that episode, on light as the speed limit to the universe {being exhausted from PA 2 paper and MATHS T paper 2 ,I knock off towards the last quarter of the show}

And once again, Physics as part of my future was back into the question. Sigh.{NOT AGAIN!!!!!}

I seriously do not know whether I should leave the rest of my life to a flip or a coin(heads for physics and tails for medcine)
but then there is this strong belief I have that follow your heart even when it is against all odds... and like wat Confucius once said :
"Wheresoever you go, go with all your heart.

Both are fields slightly in parallel , and both are something I really want to do.
Unfortunately, it is not like a double degree of Maths and physics or music and physics or even law and physics[all possible prospects of what I want and "can" be]... becoming a doctor is like doing 3 degrees at once, that much of commitment and hard work, it can't involve the rest of science as it has too much of it already.
The only reason I disregarded in becoming a researcher/lecturer/professor in physics was because, I could not really picture myself only sitting in a lab, sipping coffee while marking papers or collecting the data from computers and super machines as a life routine...

My peers, family and friends and "comrades" certainly know I am not the kind that stands still!...
Where is my heart telling me to go?


Perhaps someday, I'll treat you for ailment(hopefully not a chronic one or never need to treat u at all) . or
maybe, one day your grandchild will read of my discovery and curse me for coming up with such a theory and all those twisting forumalae.
But I will never know till then.

"All growth is a leap in the dark, a spontaneous unpremeditated act without benefit of experience. "

~ Henry Miller~