Tomorrow may never come. The only time you can be sure of, is NOW.

For the first time in the last 7 years of my blogging history... this was the first year, where the new year's eve -come-new year's day post was never made.

I thought I would save it for the 14th of April then... but as almost always, ink-to-paper needs to happen when there is some big turning point in my life.
[and if there was a mapped trail of every path I took and every turn I chose, I think I've been through two ends of the spectrum and made a couple of circles.. ]

Many inspiring things have occurred in the last six to seven months. Quite a few, that had been life changing... everyone close to me noticed the new sense of serenity I have around them, the mellow breaths I take to the quieter  demeanour  that has become part of me. To be honest, I don't feel so, but I'm definitely at more peace with almost everything around me, even "tragedies and disasters" within or outside my circle

since whatever happened two Septembers ago,  I turned horribly edgy, having hurt a whole list of people in my life. Some knowingly, and many otherwise.
The responsibility only falls on me, I swear, because things happen, and it should had been my role to handled them better. Perhaps not everything.

From two  Septembers ago,  the truest people to me were revealed for this current chapter in life.
yes , I lost my best friend of nine years along the way... but ya, I kinda had to come to acceptance that she was quite a b*#@% herself for all that she did in her conscious mind . We talk maybe... but, ya, as forgiving as I can be, I never really forget some things.


I kept the friends who are really just that :)  and finally opened my eyes to the fact that family is everything, and they will stick by you no matter what... especially my amma & achan ... and my incredible little brother....ok ok ... my slightly (understatement) blunt older brothers.  their better halves were like sisters to me throughout too. [no, they weren't buttering me up, cause , they failed that long long ago when they were put to the "test"  :p ]

my oldest girl friends, stood by me no matter what.
my closest guy friends, initially tried masking the pain away, but like everyone else, there came a point that some amount of bluntness was needed to snap me out of how I was really feeling.

Life went on. it always does. it just goes on and on and on... however strong or tough, one could be.... there will be a point that you have to just step out of that suffocating box and start again. I learnt to move on really really fast then on. From anything really! May it be another love, or another best friend-like-sister or even a family member's passing... I am just determined to close that chapter, let it be, and go on with my bigger dreams in life...


Along the way, in the last 18 months or so, I recognised love again, in two different faces. :)

well, ya... they didn't work out, reasons aside, probably for the better. Maybe I caused them to breath an air of sadness when I was too close to them... perhaps not.
Whatever it was, they made me a better person in many ways others never actually could. Reaching out to me the way you both did, I will never forget. Thank you, for staying resilient, despite having to had known me during the worst phase of my life.
for that I will always root for them whenever I can, for they were always good friends to start with.

[right now, both of you are so happy in your own separate ways, it only brings smiles and joy to me...I pray it will always go smooth for each of you :]


so when all my darkest fears were drowning me  at the same time, I somehow swam out of it, breathing again. There is just too much out there in life that I am not willing to miss out on .

If it was the old me , I would had taken nearly 4 years to move on from one thing to another.

I am still the same "dapinkgurl" who writes nonsense and does crazy random stuff in life, with some degree of sensibility ... but, perhaps a little more grown up. :D
ya that took sometime, didn't it ? :p

I'm back to writing my own songs these days :)
Busy making kids smile in the wards.[some occasional cry inducing events do occur! ]
Running for 10 km in an hour again [yay to my knees]
Trolling away with my friends on the funniest games
Nerding my brains away whenever I get the chance :p ``
Laughing endlessly to the lamest jokes around
Cracking some of my own too [and hearing crickets all around me haha ]

There are no expectations but that of mine

It is nice to have this freedom again and just be me. 

[I'm really too lazy to edit the html for this post... so here we end it as it is ]

Raindrops Keep falling On my Head....

Raindrops keep falling on my head
And just like the guy whose feet are too big for his bed
Nothing seems to fit
Those raindrops are falling on my head, they keep falling

Yea, almost anyone of us would have heard this magnificient piece by B.Bacharach...one of my all time favourite composers. I love his songs.
but the way Billy Joe Thomas sings it, I could just dance in the rain with it.
like how I did this morning
:)

From a distant...
a sparkle...
a shine
a tranquil drop ...
it first feels cold over my skin
and then it becomes warm...
reminds you of the days of 5 and 6
where the world was a splendour
and carefree
the gentle
calm
soft drop
of rain

They say, the weather affects your mood.
What if I told you, maybe your mood affects the weather instead.
Hence you make what your surrounding is.

It certainly does. NEWTON's 3Rd Law... Your emotions results into some force that produces some action... hence, there is a reaction to it... but in this case, it is not Equal and opposite...

Especially for those with one of those strong auras around them,
able to change moods of others,
make others smile
or even cry.

I love the rain...
always have
Ironic though, my nickname at school is Sunshine...
but i love the morning rays of sun too...
but not as much as the soft, gentle raindrops on my window...


I love this next part of the song too:

But there's one thing I know The blues they send to meet me, won't defeat me It wont be long till happiness steps up to greet me

For many, rain is a nuisance ... but it depends how we make use of the challenges in our lives...
.
If a storm that builds up from excessive rain;the element I myself love so much,
but induces pain and anguish...
something that may be troublesome

worrisome

tiresome..

but if we keep our heads held up high...
and walk through the storm...
and reach the brighter side
happiness steps up.

Its the spirit of wanting to make a change and the courage to do so...
may it be
for something you love
or someone you care
or just for the plain passion in life.

Raindrops keep falling on my head
But that doesn't mean my eyes will soon be turning red
Cryings not for me
Cause I'm never gonna stop the rain by complaining
Because I'm free
Nothings worrying me. ;)

I am free...
have always been free
and will always be

As long as I Breath.
as long as I can See
Hear, Taste
and most importantly....
FEEL..
I'll let my heart flutter free
for all the world is a
wonder.


And I hope to keep making everyone around me
feel the same...

It has been raining almost daily since Tuesday.
I like it.
Although my mum and maids complain that nothing is drying up.
I hope I have enough clean clothes ;)

Angels from above... and the Heavenly bodies... Thank you.

~peace out~
aletha kavindra

the Constituition we swear upon.

How far does freedom of speech allow us to actually break out of this concrete shell??


Article 10

Main article: Article 10 of the Constitution of Malaysia


Article 10 (1) guarantees the freedom of speech, the right to assemble peacefully and the right to form associations to every Malaysian citizen. However, Parliament may by law impose restrictions on these rights in the interest of the security of the Federation, friendly relations with other countries, public order, morality; and restrictions designed to protect the privileges of Parliament, to provide against contempt of court, defamation, or incitement to any offence.

Article 10 is a key provision of Part II of the Constitution, and has been regarded as "of paramount importance" by the judicial community in Malaysia. However, it has been argued that the rights of Part II, in particular Article 10, "have been so heavily qualified by other parts of the Constitution, for example, Part XI in relation to special and emergency powers, and the permanent state of emergency that has existed since 1969, that much of [the Constitution's] high principles are lost."[5]

Article 10 (4) states that Parliament may pass law prohibiting the questioning of any matter, right, status, position, privilege, sovereignty or prerogative established or protected by the provisions of Part III, article 152, 153 or 181 of the constitution.

Several acts of law regulate the freedoms granted by Article 10, such as the Official Secrets Act, which makes it a crime to disseminate information classified as an official secret.

The Sedition Act 1948 makes it an offence to engage in acts with a "seditious tendency", including but not limited to the spoken word and publications; conviction may result in a sentence of a fine up to RM5,000, three years in jail, or both.

The Public Order (Preservation) Ordinance 1958 allows the Police to declare certain areas "restricted", and to regulate processions or meetings of five persons or more. The maximum sentence for the violation of a restricted area order is imprisonment of 10 years and whipping.[6]

Other laws curtailing the freedoms of Article 10 are the Police Act 1967, which criminalises the gathering of three or more people in a public place without a licence, and the Printing Presses and Publications Act 1984, which grants the Home Affairs Minister "absolute discretion" in the granting and revoking of publishing permits, and also makes it a criminal offense to possess a printing press without a licence.[7]

The Sedition Act in particular has been widely commented upon by jurists for the bounds it places on freedom of speech. Justice Raja Azlan Shah (later the Yang di-Pertuan Agong) once said:


“ The right to free speech ceases at the point where it comes within the mischief of the Sedition Act.[8]


[well, we love being special, and this is such special freedom of speech...that it nearly contradicts the soul of a human right!!!]