Tomorrow may never come. The only time you can be sure of, is NOW.

For the first time in the last 7 years of my blogging history... this was the first year, where the new year's eve -come-new year's day post was never made.

I thought I would save it for the 14th of April then... but as almost always, ink-to-paper needs to happen when there is some big turning point in my life.
[and if there was a mapped trail of every path I took and every turn I chose, I think I've been through two ends of the spectrum and made a couple of circles.. ]

Many inspiring things have occurred in the last six to seven months. Quite a few, that had been life changing... everyone close to me noticed the new sense of serenity I have around them, the mellow breaths I take to the quieter  demeanour  that has become part of me. To be honest, I don't feel so, but I'm definitely at more peace with almost everything around me, even "tragedies and disasters" within or outside my circle

since whatever happened two Septembers ago,  I turned horribly edgy, having hurt a whole list of people in my life. Some knowingly, and many otherwise.
The responsibility only falls on me, I swear, because things happen, and it should had been my role to handled them better. Perhaps not everything.

From two  Septembers ago,  the truest people to me were revealed for this current chapter in life.
yes , I lost my best friend of nine years along the way... but ya, I kinda had to come to acceptance that she was quite a b*#@% herself for all that she did in her conscious mind . We talk maybe... but, ya, as forgiving as I can be, I never really forget some things.


I kept the friends who are really just that :)  and finally opened my eyes to the fact that family is everything, and they will stick by you no matter what... especially my amma & achan ... and my incredible little brother....ok ok ... my slightly (understatement) blunt older brothers.  their better halves were like sisters to me throughout too. [no, they weren't buttering me up, cause , they failed that long long ago when they were put to the "test"  :p ]

my oldest girl friends, stood by me no matter what.
my closest guy friends, initially tried masking the pain away, but like everyone else, there came a point that some amount of bluntness was needed to snap me out of how I was really feeling.

Life went on. it always does. it just goes on and on and on... however strong or tough, one could be.... there will be a point that you have to just step out of that suffocating box and start again. I learnt to move on really really fast then on. From anything really! May it be another love, or another best friend-like-sister or even a family member's passing... I am just determined to close that chapter, let it be, and go on with my bigger dreams in life...


Along the way, in the last 18 months or so, I recognised love again, in two different faces. :)

well, ya... they didn't work out, reasons aside, probably for the better. Maybe I caused them to breath an air of sadness when I was too close to them... perhaps not.
Whatever it was, they made me a better person in many ways others never actually could. Reaching out to me the way you both did, I will never forget. Thank you, for staying resilient, despite having to had known me during the worst phase of my life.
for that I will always root for them whenever I can, for they were always good friends to start with.

[right now, both of you are so happy in your own separate ways, it only brings smiles and joy to me...I pray it will always go smooth for each of you :]


so when all my darkest fears were drowning me  at the same time, I somehow swam out of it, breathing again. There is just too much out there in life that I am not willing to miss out on .

If it was the old me , I would had taken nearly 4 years to move on from one thing to another.

I am still the same "dapinkgurl" who writes nonsense and does crazy random stuff in life, with some degree of sensibility ... but, perhaps a little more grown up. :D
ya that took sometime, didn't it ? :p

I'm back to writing my own songs these days :)
Busy making kids smile in the wards.[some occasional cry inducing events do occur! ]
Running for 10 km in an hour again [yay to my knees]
Trolling away with my friends on the funniest games
Nerding my brains away whenever I get the chance :p ``
Laughing endlessly to the lamest jokes around
Cracking some of my own too [and hearing crickets all around me haha ]

There are no expectations but that of mine

It is nice to have this freedom again and just be me. 

[I'm really too lazy to edit the html for this post... so here we end it as it is ]

LIVE love LIFE

again and again and again...
Till the end of time.
For every story has a beginning, a middle, an end.
And some things just happen all the time. 

“The saddest people I've ever met in life are the ones who don't care deeply about anything at all. Passion and satisfaction go hand in hand, and without them, any happiness is only temporary, because there's nothing to make it last.” 
― Nicholas Sparks

1. It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return.
But what is more painful is to love someone and never
find the courage to let that person know how you feel.

2. A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who
means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was
never meant to be and you just have to let go.

3. The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a
porch swing with, never say a word, and then walk away
feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.

4. It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose
it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been
missing until it arrives.

5. It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an
hour to like someone, and a day to love someone-but it
takes a lifetime to forget someone.
6. Don't go for looks, they can deceive. Don't go for wealth,
even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you
smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day
seem bright.

7. Dream what you want to dream, go where you want to go,
be what you want to be. Because you have only one life and
one chance to do all the things you want to do.
8. Always put yourself in the other's shoes. If you feel that it
hurts you, it probably hurts the person too.

9. A careless word may kindle strife. A cruel word may wreck
a life. A timely word may level stress. But a loving word may
heal and bless.

10. The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best
of everything they just make the most of everything that comes
along their way.

11. Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, ends with
a tear. When you were born, you were crying and everyone
around you was smiling. Live your life so that when you die,
you're the one smiling and everyone around you is crying.

the RIGHT one , the WRONG time

The greatest irony of love: 

 ''Loving the right person at the wrong time or having the wrong person when the time is right? '' 

0r is it worse, finding out you love someone after that person walks out of your life? 

then there is a whole list of heartbreaks and so called "love failures", relationships, sometimes even marriages that don't work out for the most bizzare and "un-understandable"  reasons.....

for more irony ,  some think that letting go is one way of expressing how much they love that person {that perhaps if that love returns eventually, it was meant to be...}

and then, there's some, afraid to see the one they love, is actually being held by someone else. 

Most relationships tend to fail not because of the absence of love, but because love is always present. It's just that one was being loved too much, and the other was being loved too little. 
Something, quite a number of people end up learning the hard way. A very very tough way ..

     Most often, we fall in love with the person we think we love, but to only discover that for them we are just for past times. While the one who truly loves us remains either your friend or just a stranger.
     When some think of their past love; they may had viewed it as a failure; but when they find a new love, that so called failure becomes some sort of lesson, more of a teacher... 
Saying "some" is an understatement, for its many of us who fall into the whirlpool of love and life, who eventually realise the above. 

Is it right for someone to name it a game of love?  for it doesn't really matter who won or who lost... What's important is that you know when to hold on and when to let go. 
Yesterday, one of my best friends asked, how does it feel to be truly in love. At that instant, I realised, not much thought was actually given to that. 
I guess, you know that you love someone when you want him or her to be happy, even if their happiness means that you're not apart of it. Even if it means, sometimes, that their happiness is of much greater importance of your own. 

Everything happens for a reason and for its best. 

If the person you love doesn't love you back, don't be afraid to love someone else again, for you'll never know unless you give it a try. You'll never truly love a person, unless you risk for their love; love strives in hurting. 

If you don't get hurt, then you won't learn how to love. Love doesn't hurt all the time; though the hurting is there to test you, to help you grow. 

then, on another note, don't rush it all...

Don't go looking for love. Don't find love, let love find you; -- that's why it's called falling in love[DUH!] 
 because we don't need to force ourself to love, we just fall.

   but [yes, my favourite word...IN EVERY POST! hehe ] -- You cannot finish a book without closing the chapters. If you want to move on, then you have to leave the past as you turn the pages. Love is not destroyed by a single failure or won by a single caress.

   but why is it that the greatest irony of love is letting go when you want to hold on,      and holding on when you need to let go? You can never find the right person if you can never let it go of the wrong, but at the same time the moment you feel like letting go, you remember why you held on for so long. Sometimes you have to forget what you want and remember what you deserve. 

To love is to risk rejection, 

 to live is to risk dying 

 and

to hope is to risk failure.

 The past though, a tough teacher, taught me one thing -- don't risk it all. Don't throw it all away, don't sacrifice your all. Love yourself as much as you could love another too.  but risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing at all. 


To reach for another is to risk involvement, to expose your feelings is to expose your true self. To love is to risk not being loved in return.

 My point of view, defining love, is quite unreal, probably it's just a hypothesis, probably an imagination, but for some, including myself, it is that intangible "thinga-magica", that happens! 

 so in life :

 Fall but do not stumble. 

Be constant but not too persistent. 

Share and never be unfair. 

Understand and try not to demand.

Hurt but never keep the pain. 

 Love is supposed to be the most wonderful feeling. It should inspire you and give you joy and strength. But sometimes the things that give you joy can also hurt you in the end. Loving people means giving them the freedom; whom they choose to be and where they choose to go. 

Loving someone means giving them the freedom to find their way, whether it leads towards you or away from you.

Love can be a painful risk. To love means that risk must be taken, no matter how scary or painful, for only then will you experience the fullness of humanity of what we call love.

 If you're not ready to cry, if you're not ready to take the risk and if you're not ready to feel the pain, then you're not ready to fall in love. 

 ~live~life~love~

 so let's fall in love...

Left in the Dark

what did i ever not do enough for you ?i still play this song in my sleep and its cause i mean it. I meant it everytime i said i love you. i gave up many things for you, knowingly and with pure intentions. never was i ever fake to you. even at times of anger and when i couldnt control my temper... i regreted them!
i regretted them, hence i hurt myself for it.
someday, you will realise, that's why I'm letting you go . letting you off my mind as much as i can, so you will find your peace some how.
im sorry , if you were fed with lies and manipulation by all the other people...
i will stay true to myself, and I know what is right or wrong. and I know who you are and what you are not. With my confidence and trust in you that lines my heart, I know what is the best to do , not for just myself, but for both of us.
Loving someone, is also loving them for their worst and most horrid sides...
i accepted and embraced yours... maybe you are just not that grown up to take mine.
I hope some day ... may it be me, or anyone else... you will learn to love unconditionally.
so unconditional, that you won't be sorry for loving them...that you will never run from them... that you will stand by her side, no matter what... and a million people can hate you for loving her, but you still would, with all your heart and even more....
that's true love.
i have felt it . experienced it... hope you get the golden chance to , when it happens too...
Despite all the hurt anyone could had gone thru from what has happened... guess what, I'm barely in pain. I kept wondering why .
i tried finding reasons... but this is what i found :

“I have found the paradox, that if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love.” Mother Teresa

[=
[ i gotta thank you, for letting me experience such a wonderful feeling! [ironically it is ]
if you want to hate me, go ahead
if you want to forget me, try
if you never ever want to hear or see me again, please tell me...
they are all your will and your choices....
i feel incredibly free now ! doing all of my hearts desire. spending the best and the most of time with dozens of people who have waited and loved me from a far for years.
cuci mata also here and there... hehe
we grew up too fast!
cause, i still think of you every time i get up from sleep, and every night, i still spend 15 mins or so reminiscing about you. its as if you died , but i very well know you're just some hundred miles away.
i want to keep all these memories...
cause who knows, in some future to come, our paths will cross...
we only have one soul mate each... and i will tell you confidently , we are each other's... maybe we were really good in a past life. or maybe we are meant to be in the heavens together someday... or maybe its all just not meant to be , for now only....
the future is for us to pave.
i miss you everyday, i dont care if that will boost your ego, or scare you away, but that's how i feel, and i have to let you know.
good luck always...
you will always be in my prayers and my thoughts.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=endscreen&v=lrF814OnFQ4&NR=1

Du ba du Be dubiety..

Darn! its been ages since the last post was up . Sadly , this is going to be short and pretty uncertain, as its obvious with the heading already.

I think its all back to square one... where this little blog page is going to be my very dear friend again.

to start it off.. remember Joseph Vincent from my previous posts, AGES ago... ?!?
well, he is climbing up the indie youtube one man band scene already! :)

Maroon 5 , my most favourite band is coming to perform, with tickets priced sky rocketing high, and I have no proper company to follow either.

Easter break is next week though ... lets see what that brings in ...


Here you go ,
HoorahJencer aka Joseph Vincent!

Baby, the song goes out to you , btw..

Goodbye My Teenager years

This might be the shortest blog of mine, ever.
for the most exciting, adventurous and interesting part of my life...
I'm still legally 19 today.
Tomorrow holds much more ... :)
therefore, ladies and gentlemen.... I bit my teenage years goodbye... but I hope to remain as young at heart, always!
:D

ADioZ

13- life turning
14- Grew Up a lot
15- New Beginnings
16- Test of endurance
17- saw others Grow up...
18- fell in love and ventured deep into everything else
19- got knocked down(the hardest)....came around...and got back up...

Its me again.... to go through it all.. the storm, the volcanoe, the meteor shower...anything at all... I AM ALL OUT TO STRIVE ON! :)

~viva la vida~

The Next Day

well, Yesterday was over... still the same.
:)

I like it this way. and hope it stays. If I sound awfully vague, I am sorry I cannot elaborate further....
its a secret.
and secrets are meant to be kept hidden...

By the way, a good sign of revelation an Old Friend of mine came across...
http://keespy.blogspot.com/2009/08/attraction.html

Everyday is a new beginning... we just learn from the past and look up for the future...

Live-life-Love...
my way.

What is up tomorrow?

Hey hey!
The Prefectorial Board AGM was held last Friday, and that is it. Official obligations as a student leader is over... and I am going to be soooooo restless now on!

Back to square 7!

But the official handover ain't done yet , though... I hope the "little ones" learn fast!
:)

I remember this familiar scenario almost 2 years ago... the same time I had too much time and ended falling in love... it was an experience.
Falling in and out of that game , is not really my field to play, I seem to be bad at it. So my second husband... STPM here I come! Wedding on 19th November 2009... wish me luck.

anyway, today feels too good to be true, so as usual, I doubt this "euphoria" will last till tomorrow.
STPM trials staring next Tuesday too!
MeRDeka eh?
hahaha

Good luck fellow upper Sixers... and happy marking to our poor teachers too!
we'll get you all some coffee sachets too...


(back to studying 9 yet to cover Physics chapters)

<3 my family <3 my besties <3 my school <3Human Kind

I lost a Friend...

Today, the 29th of July 2009,
happens to be the birthday of 2 close friends....but sadly, about 11 hours ago, my baby brother, my friends, my schoolmates,the Eagles of ACS .... and I , lost a very dear person.

Tevindiran.....



Boy... YOU RAWKED !
you were one of those becons of joy and humour at times when many of us could not even think of the simplest jokes in PR hours.

I first knew you as a close to my lil' bro... and then when I joined the Prefects last year, you were there to look out for me from all those big bullies...

Exactly a year ago, we were grouped into the same LTC group--Da Draculas...
I remember, it took us- D, Swa, Thin, you and even I to come up with a plan for our Nostalgia Night sketch.
Eventually, Tev, you came up with your very own remake and improvisation of Dracula itself....
it was an experience playing the Dracula's wife and "turining you into a vampire''

The cheers we shouted under the "bunian" tree... the 80 year old ceilings that dropped near the Chem Lab and even the exhaution that we all went through together during the 48 hour "torture" during LTC on the 27-29th August last year....

It was FUN!

then we became the seniors and the leaders for the Board.
Yet, you were there to put a smile on my sad face at certain days... and make me laugh my guts out with the jokes I claimed were "lame"... but I laughed, didn't I....



Remember on the 5th of July, at my house this year... you have always been a very important friend of my brother and a good one too...it was hillarious seeing you "pole dance" on the birthday boy aka. my bro...I even dropped of the sofa.

Although we were not so close friends, I knew you as a person rich with creativity and had one of a kind of an imagination! you loved writing and came up with the strangest ideas.

Before our Canteen Day, i remember tasting your Honey Chicken Burger. most of us seriously thought you will make real good money selling them nightly... Was planning to suggest it for your post-SPM months.

Now its too late to say that, isn't it ? =(

I also remember some where this February, you came asking me for advise, on your 13 SPM subjects....LOL...
and also the fact that the school was strictly prohibitted you from taking them. hahaha....the funny part was that, you were so determined to go on your own will , hence you decided not to sit for your Mid Year's Exam ...
You were bold!

and I said, I got your back, tevin....
I was worried, actually...

During the December Holz... I am soooo sorry for ignoring you at times ...

Now that you are gone... nothing I say can take back for the times I nagged at you, nor the times i raised my voice towards you... certainly not even the time , that is just 3 days ago, when I was upset with you and the geng for what you all did that evening. I was trying to be the big sister, after all, it was my duty as Grandma of the Board.
This Grandma...never really like your Girlfriend, Ms Bike.... :(

but I'm quite glad, that on Sunday morning , we were cool...
Gosh, I still don't belive that I cannot hear another piece of joke nor tease you back ...

Dude,
LTC 09 was incredible! and you were a big part of it...

and the happy moments we shared,not just as a whole big Board of prefects , but as a big happy family, will always , and i mean it, will ALWAYS... be cherished and remembered.

It still hasn't sunk in to me that you are really gone... , but a huge part of me, says that you moved many of our worlds...

you would have been a best-seller writer, probably even the next Chaplin. haha.

I heard you wrote a book.... I am already booking for it...



Rest In Peace , tev.........

~kavitha~


.... the ACS Prefects and our fellow ACSIANS....:

WE WILL MISS YOU!

The Flu

I'm not the average blog to write a journal type... honestly, sometimes I find a total waste of time and effort(seemingly, very few people actually read all of it).
I'm sitting here, staring bankly at the speakers of the PC , stupidly expecting a favourite song of mine to play at random.
Exams are on next week, and well, I AM BLOGGING!!!!!
Yikes... its mainly because I have come up with this terrible allergy reaction and am barely able to do anything else(very unlike my usual reactions)
It is cold yet it is terribly hot... guess I have fallen sick after sooooo long .

That then reminds me, I still have my unwritten speech for the World Young Women's Forum.... ARGH!
more frustrations right?
I started of quarter of the speech but there is just too much to write for a 6 minute speech.
Darn !

Other than my dear oral trainer at school, well, there is not much support otherwise.

Talking about support.....my best friend is "uncomfortable" with us texting almost daily... OI! we have been doing it for almost forever!!?! It is not my fault he hasn't been studying nor is he even near being prepared for his exams. I lost track of the countless number of times that I have actually nagged him on and on about him studying and that don't procrastinate and all that crap.
Yea, crap...
because, to tell you the truth ... procrastinating has become quite a part of my life lately as well....

Frustrations, well, they have always been there, and I am proud to tell you that I do keep my distance from it. It happens to be a bad friend... and I don't like keeping bad friends ;)

Haha... talking about bad friends.... my dear closiez and so called BFFS..... where on earth are you all?
Let me be frank, I am tired of being the first one to call or email or even find out if you all are down.... Surprisingly it is , I'm at home in the place we all grew up and there is no courtesey of any sort for you to let me know?!?!
I have given up... if you want to maintain a friendship, please do it so as well... it works two ways you know... everything does..
Its too exhausting for only one person to keep tabs at all times. Despite the fact that I may be a little busy when you are back, well, i will and so would any one else, appreciate a short call or a sweet message from you,or maybe a surprise drop by at my place.Its courteousy !

And, finally to courteousy.... like what I mentioned on the first of this year... what on earth is people with impersonal messages in wishing for a special occasion or so. Yesterday was Mother's day... If you want to wish a mother, call them larr! Or send a kind,sweet , NON FORWARDING NON SEND-TO-MANY text message. Must mobile phones and tele-communication ethiques become something thought in the school too!?!?!?!

Anyway, I don't believe in the 2nd Sundays of May being mother's day... its meant to be everyday... I think its plainly another commercial event for Memory Lane and giant corps to rander money out of our gradually shrinking pockets!
(I rather make my o0wn gifts and cards...call me stingy or anything, but my loved ones who get it , actually love it!)

So in the end, our actions are shown from what is in our hearts...

[i'm wheezing already now... off to sleep again i guess... and its not even 8 pm]
sigh.

These words I've put into digital ones and zeroes, may just be the flu speaking(an effective excuse eh?)
or probably something that has been too long buried at the bottom of my heart and mind....

More words soon( forseeing a few more frustrations) ;)

Hey, don't go thinking that I am a sadist type or just emo, I'll post any exciting, interesting and HAPPY goss or stories and experiences ASAP!

Simple Together

a piece that I found really meaningful and I think Alanis has really put in deep emotions into the simplest of words.
Thank you, Alanis Morissette.



Simple Together

D A D (A)
You've been my golden best friend
D A G (A)
Now with post-demise at hand

Can't go to you for consolation

`Cause we're off limits during this transition



G A
This grief overwhelms me
G A
It burns in my stomach
D Bm A
And I can't stop bumping into things





D G
I thought we'd be simple together

I thought we'd be happy together

Thought we'd be limitless together
D
I thought we'd be precious together
A
But I was sadly mistaken





D A D (A)
You've been my soulmate and then some
D A G (A)
I remembered you the moment I met you

With you I knew god's face was handsome

With you I suffered an expansion


G A
This loss is numbing me
G A
It pierces my chest
D Bm A
And I can't stop dropping everything





D G
I thought we'd be sexy together

Thought we'd be evolving together

I thought we'd have children together

I thought we'd be family together

But I was sadly mistaken


G A D G
If I had a bill for all the philosophies I shared

If I had a penny for all the possibilities I presented

If I had a dime for every hand thrown up in the air

My wealth would render this no less severe



D G
I thought we'd be genius together

I thought we'd be healing together

I thought we'd be growing together

Thought we'd be adventurous together
A
But I was sadly mistaken




D G
Thought we'd be exploring together

Thought we'd be inspired together

I thought we'd be flying together

Thought we'd be on fire together
A
But I was sadly mistaken

Not Knowing Me

This is a story of a girl who enjoys getting herself into challenges, boggle her mind and impart risks as her middle name.
It has been five years since she first felt this way.
And three years since it had made her little heart ache.

In continuation to my previous blog(the undone one), I have found this very meaningful poem by an anonymous person.
It makes a lot of sense, and its to those who think they actually know the meaning of it, well, darn, think again!

To laugh is to risk appearing the fool.
To weep is to risk appearing sentimental.
To reach for another is to risk involvement.
To expose your ideas, your dreams,
before a crowd is to risk their loss.
To love is to risk not being loved in return.
To live is to risk dying.
To believe is to risk despair.
To try is to risk failure.
But risks must be taken, because the
greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing.
The people who risk nothing, do nothing,
have nothing, are nothing.
They may avoid suffering and sorrow,
but they cannot learn, feel, change,
grow, love, live.
Chained by their attitudes they are slaves;
they have forfeited their freedom.
Only a person who risks is free.

From you I have learned; i have known how painful failure can really be.At least in the end of the day, I can always tell myself that I somewhat tried to make it better. Some what tried to make it happen, despite for the number of weeks that I felt as if the world was about to come to an end. Or the fact that before this, there was once I thought I had every splendour at the tips of my fingers. You made me realise, something that I had for a long time forgotten, that you can't always get what you want. And that makes you appreciate for all the wonderful things in life.

I spilled my deepest thoughts to you. Shared my philosophies in life , presented my best ... but I realised I actually stopped trying to impress you anymore. I've been absolutely myself around you. Perhaps , we remain best of pals for now.

Live to the utmost best for all the challenges we are to face. I'll be here for you, always,as I know you to will be around to catch me if I fall. This relationship we have, has its own uniqueness that only you and I will ever understand.
Thank you for being there for me .

No, it doesn't end here, I have one tiny doubt that haunts me in my sleep.It is that if you really need me ? And do you actually know the face of this girl you call your best friend.... We have our own secrets, the fewest that we have not shared. And the stories you have told me , the pain you have shared with me, and the encouragement I have always tried my best to give to you.... Do you not sense that most of the time, I feel like you do not really appreciate it....and there are times, when a cloud of emotion hits me, revealing that perhaps you do not really know me.

I take risks, my dearest friend, I have always...
Taken the roughest roads and made the most difficult choices.
Climbed many mountains and swam across seas.
Most of the time, they were my choices...solely mine,
and I did very frequently choose the path that was less travelled. But for you to have said those words the other day, I thought to myself , "Does he really understand me the best?".... I missed that old friend I had in you, who gave it all, didn't mind its consequences and actually had a great time together.

Once again, I make a choice,instead of the one that many people would make to look for another. I choose to take the one that was grassy and wanted wear.

Therefore, im really free.
Irony is all part of life.

2009!

Well, look how fast time flew. For some weird reason, 2008 felt really short. My mum said its because I'm getting older...literally, I AM GETTING OLD! Today we start a new year. For some, a new venture. For many, more days ahead. and maybe, just maybe, a second chance for something.

I had 43 Text messages wishing me, unfortunately, only about 5 were really personal ones. I made the decison to reply each and everyone of them(i hope i dint miss anyone)with something from "me". LOL.

A few have replied to this reply. But people, what happened to the personal touch anyway? I mean, just choose a forwarding and "SEND TO MANY"? OKOK i shall not be a fuss sport, cause i still am very grateful for all those nice words(i get more on New Years Day then on my Birthday...which is in 4 Days time xD )

2009...what is out for me in this year... the most prominent item of the year would be, STPM!
My high school cert examinations... and , proudly(or maybe sadly) it is the 2nd toughest EXAM IN THE WORLD. well , I give the honours to all my friends, family and blog followers, to remind me of that!!! I want those 5 As.

Next, I wanna be single and free for 2009. Yeap.... go a little wild too. :)

well... I hope the global economic crisis will reside ASAP.
Hope it rains a little less from 4 to 8 in the evenings in Ipoh.
Wish the poor kids all over the world get food and education and shelter.
And mostly, hope everybody keeps believing and having hope in whatever goodness the world has to offer.

I may not be blogging much often anymore either(its obvious from the gradual decrease in activity in blogger and.......my XANGA is "poof", gone....)
But friends, catch me in facebook... it will always be nice to hear from anyone, once in awhile...

Happy 2009, everybody!

yours truly,
b~A~k

taKe a LoOk aRounD

"Does anybody really know the secret
And the combination for this life and where they keep it
Its kinda sad when you don't know the meaning"

familiar....?

all MI fans and limp bizkit fans would!

yes................the theme song...


and guess what
it does make a lot of sense don't you think so.

maybe for an emo kid (a lot)
haha[I am not saying that im the emo .. . . .]

but you know what inspires me to start writing blogs and journals and stuffz around!?

well.... all those around me
and lately, my friends have caused a great impact on them.

Ok credit also goes to my family, but nothing new to learn from there(maybe a little but not much)

They have inspired me(some of them), some have disgusted me while most of them have made me partly who I am today.

My definition of a friend is really thorough.
This year I clearly made a revelation in my tiny head on the similarities of a friend and an acquaintance.
A friend is an acquaintance, but not the other way around. And this brings to another relationship equation you see, a friend can be a trusted best friend but not the other way around(at least in my life,

haha

and the best "function" of relationships,

best friends can be lovers but not best friends must be lovers

neither is it that lovers not equal to best friends..........



GET ME?!?!!?

hahaha

psyched "mathematician " in the making!


heheheh


well

here goes to all of you ,

my acquaintances, friends, best friends and lovers(lol --with an "s" ) and even the stranger in the park the other day..............................

Good luck in all your relationships.....................


MAy GoD blEss us aLL!!!


:)