Wednesday, 2 September 2009


Breath... ask anybody around me often, and they will know, that is my favourite word.

There are so many songs with this title, but the newest I found, by Taylor Swift, reminds me of a little tragedy that came about my life almost exactly 3 months ago...

Sorry, I can't write much today, so it will just be a
simple C & P (copy and paste)

By Taylor Swift

Capo 1

C                   G                F
I see your face in my mind as I drive away

C                        G             F
Cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way

C                        G                  F
People are people and sometimes we change our minds

C                    G                F
But it's killing me to see you go after all this time

C   G   F
Mmm mmm mm

C   G   F
Mmm mmm mmm

C                            G             F
Music starts playin' like the end of a sad movie

C                              G            F
It's the kinda ending you don't really wanna see

C                G             F
Cause it's tragedy and it'll only bring you down

C                   G               F
Now I don't know what to be without you around

F                      C
And we know it's never simple, never easy


Never a clean break

No one here to save me

F                      C                       G
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand

F  C   G
I can’t breathe without you

But I have to

F  C    G
Breathe without you

Am              F C G
But I have to

C                       G            F
Never wanted this, never wanna see you hurt

C                       G               F
Every little bump in the road I tried to swerve

C                        G                F
But people are people and sometimes it doesn't work out

C                      G                F
Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out

F                      C
And we know it's never simple, never easy

Never a clean break

No one here to save me

F                       C                      G
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand

F  C    G
I can't breathe without you

But I have to

F   C    G
Breathe without you

Am             F C G Am F C G
But I have to

It's two a.m.

Feelin' like I just lost a friend

C              G
Hope you know it's not easy, easy for me

It's two a.m.

Feelin' like I just lost a friend

C              G
Hope you know this ain't easy, easy for me

F                      C 
And we know it's never simple, never easy

Never a clean break

Am                    F C G
No one here to save me oh

F  C    G
I can't breathe without you

But I have to

F  C    G
Breathe without you

But I have to

F  C    G
Breathe without you

But I have to

F         C
I'm sorry, I'm sorry

G          Am          
I'm sorry, I'm sorry

F         C
I'm sorry, I'm sorry

G          F
I'm sorry

Dear readers, and fellow musicians... for the full tabs:

but it is in the key of G # minor .   :)

Friday, 28 August 2009

Raindrops Keep falling On my Head....

Raindrops keep falling on my head
And just like the guy whose feet are too big for his bed
Nothing seems to fit
Those raindrops are
falling on my head, they keep falling

Yea, almost anyone of us would have heard this magnificient piece by of my all time favourite composers. I love his songs.
but the way Billy Joe Thomas sings it, I could just dance in the rain with it.
like how I did this morning
From a distant...
a sparkle...
a shine
a tranquil drop ...
it first feels cold over my skin
and then it becomes warm...
reminds you of the days of 5 and 6
where the world was a splendour
and carefree
the gentle
soft drop
of rain

They say, the weather affects your mood.
What if I told you, maybe your mood affects the weather instead.
Hence you make what your surrounding is.

It certainly does. NEWTON's 3Rd Law... Your emotions results into some force that produces some action... hence, there is a reaction to it... but in this case, it is not Equal and opposite...

Especially for those with one of those strong auras around them,
able to change moods of others,
make others smile
or even cry.

I love the rain...
always have
Ironic though, my nickname at school is Sunshine...
but i love the morning rays of sun too...
but not as much as the soft, gentle raindrops on my window...

I love this next part of the song too:

But there's one thing I know The blues they send to meet me, won't defeat me It wont be long till happiness steps up to greet me

For many, rain is a nuisance ... but it depends how we make use of the challenges in our lives...
If a storm that builds up from excessive rain;the element I myself love so much,
but induces pain and anguish...
something that may be troublesome



but if we keep our heads held up high...
and walk through the storm...
and reach the brighter side
happiness steps up.

Its the spirit of wanting to make a change and the courage to do so...
may it be
for something you love
or someone you care
or just for the plain passion in life.

Raindrops keep falling on my head
But that doesn't mean my eyes will soon be turning red
Cryings not for me
Cause I'm never gonna stop the rain by complaining
Because I'm free
Nothings worrying me. ;)

I am free...
have always been free
and will always be

As long as I Breath.
as long as I can See
Hear, Taste
and most importantly....
I'll let my heart flutter free
for all the world is a

And I hope to keep making everyone around me
feel the same...

It has been raining almost daily since Tuesday.
I like it.
Although my mum and maids complain that nothing is drying up.
I hope I have enough clean clothes ;)

Angels from above... and the Heavenly bodies... Thank you.

~peace out~
aletha kavindra

Wednesday, 26 August 2009

The Next Day

well, Yesterday was over... still the same.

I like it this way. and hope it stays. If I sound awfully vague, I am sorry I cannot elaborate further....
its a secret.
and secrets are meant to be kept hidden...

By the way, a good sign of revelation an Old Friend of mine came across...

Everyday is a new beginning... we just learn from the past and look up for the future...

my way.

What is up tomorrow?

Hey hey!
The Prefectorial Board AGM was held last Friday, and that is it. Official obligations as a student leader is over... and I am going to be soooooo restless now on!

Back to square 7!

But the official handover ain't done yet , though... I hope the "little ones" learn fast!

I remember this familiar scenario almost 2 years ago... the same time I had too much time and ended falling in love... it was an experience.
Falling in and out of that game , is not really my field to play, I seem to be bad at it. So my second husband... STPM here I come! Wedding on 19th November 2009... wish me luck.

anyway, today feels too good to be true, so as usual, I doubt this "euphoria" will last till tomorrow.
STPM trials staring next Tuesday too!
MeRDeka eh?

Good luck fellow upper Sixers... and happy marking to our poor teachers too!
we'll get you all some coffee sachets too...

(back to studying 9 yet to cover Physics chapters)

<3 my family <3 my besties <3 my school <3Human Kind

Monday, 3 August 2009

It Does Not Have to End Like this...

I cannot bear it anymore...
its been 2 months ... and it seems almost like forever.
Not being able to speak, see, smile, walk or even sleep like how I always did , is killing me.
and you know why.... because of you.

I can't be entirely sure if you even read my blogs anymore. I could have easily sent you an email an explain all of it again... but , this is the best way right now...

Yes, you didn't want that kinda relationship with me. Eventually, I too grew out of that idea.
and however dysfunctional we have seemed in the last few months, life just seems empty without you right now.

only two songs keep playing in my head, and I wonder if its the same for you ...
cause, life does suck without you....

Don't leave just like that....
we did have a lot of fun...
its the tears and joy that brought us closer ...........

I am missing you, my dearest friend on Earth.

Wednesday, 29 July 2009

I lost a Friend...

Today, the 29th of July 2009,
happens to be the birthday of 2 close friends....but sadly, about 11 hours ago, my baby brother, my friends, my schoolmates,the Eagles of ACS .... and I , lost a very dear person.


you were one of those becons of joy and humour at times when many of us could not even think of the simplest jokes in PR hours.

I first knew you as a close to my lil' bro... and then when I joined the Prefects last year, you were there to look out for me from all those big bullies...

Exactly a year ago, we were grouped into the same LTC group--Da Draculas...
I remember, it took us- D, Swa, Thin, you and even I to come up with a plan for our Nostalgia Night sketch.
Eventually, Tev, you came up with your very own remake and improvisation of Dracula itself....
it was an experience playing the Dracula's wife and "turining you into a vampire''

The cheers we shouted under the "bunian" tree... the 80 year old ceilings that dropped near the Chem Lab and even the exhaution that we all went through together during the 48 hour "torture" during LTC on the 27-29th August last year....

It was FUN!

then we became the seniors and the leaders for the Board.
Yet, you were there to put a smile on my sad face at certain days... and make me laugh my guts out with the jokes I claimed were "lame"... but I laughed, didn't I....

Remember on the 5th of July, at my house this year... you have always been a very important friend of my brother and a good one was hillarious seeing you "pole dance" on the birthday boy aka. my bro...I even dropped of the sofa.

Although we were not so close friends, I knew you as a person rich with creativity and had one of a kind of an imagination! you loved writing and came up with the strangest ideas.

Before our Canteen Day, i remember tasting your Honey Chicken Burger. most of us seriously thought you will make real good money selling them nightly... Was planning to suggest it for your post-SPM months.

Now its too late to say that, isn't it ? =(

I also remember some where this February, you came asking me for advise, on your 13 SPM subjects....LOL...
and also the fact that the school was strictly prohibitted you from taking them. hahaha....the funny part was that, you were so determined to go on your own will , hence you decided not to sit for your Mid Year's Exam ...
You were bold!

and I said, I got your back, tevin....
I was worried, actually...

During the December Holz... I am soooo sorry for ignoring you at times ...

Now that you are gone... nothing I say can take back for the times I nagged at you, nor the times i raised my voice towards you... certainly not even the time , that is just 3 days ago, when I was upset with you and the geng for what you all did that evening. I was trying to be the big sister, after all, it was my duty as Grandma of the Board.
This Grandma...never really like your Girlfriend, Ms Bike.... :(

but I'm quite glad, that on Sunday morning , we were cool...
Gosh, I still don't belive that I cannot hear another piece of joke nor tease you back ...

LTC 09 was incredible! and you were a big part of it...

and the happy moments we shared,not just as a whole big Board of prefects , but as a big happy family, will always , and i mean it, will ALWAYS... be cherished and remembered.

It still hasn't sunk in to me that you are really gone... , but a huge part of me, says that you moved many of our worlds...

you would have been a best-seller writer, probably even the next Chaplin. haha.

I heard you wrote a book.... I am already booking for it...

Rest In Peace , tev.........


.... the ACS Prefects and our fellow ACSIANS....:


Sunday, 19 July 2009

Time Flies when you think The clock Will Stop

There are so many posts that I have been dying to write up for the last 4 weeks, but for some weird reason, I just seem to get stuck to my FB or busy researching stuffs for my upcoming projects every time I sign in.

Well lets see...
MUET is over, next is IELTS on the 8 th, which will also be the GBP farewell at school. sigh... why do I always end up skipping GBP's fun events!
MUET wasn't that good a news for me, a little disappointed, probably I deserve it for not really making good use of the practice exercises we were given.
But, our GBP EXCO term is nearly over ... :)
but I will certainly miss working with our "Mother-of-all-ACS-mothers", in some way or another.
I must thank her a lot too, for being very supportive of this lone ranger from TCS in the foreign world of ACS .

Handover for the Scouts Div II will be done somewhere next week, and so will for the super water club of ours, which will be after the Swimming Gala this week.
Haih... swimming gala, I don't think I will be able to swim for more than 2 events this year...
PS competition in KL is on the day after the interschool relay event :( (pstt to all OLDHAM, TAGORE STILL RULES!)


And guess what, LTC too....
3D2N of MEMORABLE 52 hours for our darling Probationers... (PROVE YOURSELVES worthy ,if you are reading this)

So after 27th July, is it full swing with maximum torque and power and consistency for my current "love affair" ? (pls do not get confused)

Did I mention, that he-that-should-not-be-named is quite out of my way...

He was a good friend...a very close associate to my heart too... I will cherish the very close platonic friendship we shared. What ever it is, I will remain his friend, even if he gives disregard to it now. I will be there. There to support him. The difference now is that,my support will not be as conditionless as those old days back, it will be like that of yours .... haha*...
I will only be in deed to him when he asks me to... which I bet, he will never(anybody daring to take my bet, and prove me wrong, I'll belanja you one roti canai and teh tarik). {That's how low a bet i put to it !! hehe}

It is very much a relief too... I don't need to look out or go that extra mile for him... and it is easily reserved for all my loved ones who truly ,undoubtly and deeply care and love me .
Oh yea, I have maybe an extra minute a day for myself too ;)

I found love somewhere along the lines and that supports me, gives me more space to spend with this young man who has chosen to be part of my life...

Luckily the he-who-shall-not-be-named wasn't per sued to more than just friends more than a year ago. To come to think of it, it wouldn't have lasted too... it is not because there's just too much too see and too much to learn about the rest of the world... It is mainly because, we were not really that right for each other, two very stubborn people put together where, one is wise, educated and too busy , while the other supposedly just the other way around(which was so totally false and self proclaiming), nothing could have ever worked... well we all have our own right to our own perspectives in life too... but let me remind you, it only is true if you stick to it!
after all,he was never that into me either, what can this poor girl offer right ? *eyes rollfrom left-up-right, shakes head with a loud sigh!*

Friendships grow, and the path of them growing can be through a puddle of mud, tripping into a ditch , slipping down the cliff , running through pastures of marygolds, flying through a rainbow or maybe even dancing in the clouds.... it is all a matter of growing and learning from the best and the worst of its times....the end result.... nah, it doesn't really matter I guess, to some people that is ....

Anyway, I am confident to say, most of my friendships have grown, true faces known, defects noticed, weaknesses realised, appreciation of each others' strengths and downfalls, cherishing the best in life and thanking God for diversity. Yet, keeping bonds strong and making the best out of every moment in it.
Referring to Alanis's song.... I think this transition is over...

Thank you, he-who-should-not-be-named, for reminding me something that I nearly had forgotten, expect the worst in something but hope and have faith for the best.... and FYI , dear readers, I don't think they neutralise each other..... FAITH IS ALWAYS STRONGER!

So, with hope in my heart and prayer in my mind, the rest of the year will be K OK!
Prefects, Girl Guiding, Swimming, ACSIANS, 6AE ans, Juniors, Probationers, Best friends, crushes, ex crushes, "ex best friend(to-so-so )", my aldehydes and ketones, the PS speech , STPM, trials, IELTS, my applications, my family, my doggies, and the three babies of mine, the birds that destroy my car,SND my love, my TKD and everything in my life and all those around me... I WISH US ALL THE BEST ! and carpe Diem!

In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: it goes on.

Wednesday, 20 May 2009

Which tunnel? The one behind, the one with the silver door, the one with golden gates or the calestial,star-decored arched entry????

"Never underestimate what you are about to do or what you are to face."

That is something that has slowly slipped off my mind lately.
Second day of Upper Six Mid Year exams was today. AND IT WAS A BOMB!First time have I ever equated it to such a term, no, a bomb is quite an understatement, it was like "little boy" that hit Hiroshima. CHEMISTRY--my favourite subject, I thought I would make a career out of it too.
Maybe I have to admit , I didn't really prepare well for it--for STPM standards that is :' (

My head aches terribly, too(for quite a number of days already--not the normal migraine or sinusitis throbbing) and I really shouldn't be staring at my desktop's screen and writing all this. Haha,what the heck with do's and don't s for today.

About a week ago, I had finally decided to pursue the "path much taken" --- MEDiCINE!
The old ambition. The old dream. The days of taking my mum's stethoscope and playing with my dad's stilt lamp.Its amusing to look at my "younger" self that always wanted to become a doctor. For a person who practically grew up in hospitals and clinics, baby sat by nurses,it is not queer to see such an outcome as a desire for a future.

There was even a time, I think I was 12, that I told the whole world " I want to be a pediatric ophthalmologist!"
So naive of me....because, nowadays I look at people who are overly ambitious in becoming neurosurgeons and physicians, and I tell myself ---Go get your MD or MBBS first!

Then, something turned it all around.... I was 15 and I got my hands on Dan Brown's Angels and Demons(i have a bad feeling the movie will not be as good as the book...), and "ta-dah", a sudden inspiration in becoming a phycisist. And all I saw myself was accelerating particles to almost light speeds....changing the world.

Hey, it was not just an impulse though. I had researched it well, contacted renowned scientists and this forum really helped The people there were really kind and gave really good advise. Made many good friends too.

So, I had or maybe still have a dream, a dream to create the "greenest" , renewable, free, abundant energy.... haha, sounds more ideal than any sci fi fiction.... but imagine, if we have this free, green gigantic amount of energy , will it not solve most of the world's problems....

Then, "earthly worlds" came into the picture too.. from a very young age, I was always fascinated by the stars and the cosmic.... so I had another fork on the road, if its physics till phD.... where to? material sciences? astrophysics? molecular physics????!
but...{yea, my favourite word -_- }the question was still:
~Phycisist or

the confusion has been going on since Form 4. Thank God I made up my mind in what Pre u programme I should do way before its due time of decision(STPM aka HSC Malaysia it became).

But I'm still at the biggest junction of my life:
-PHYSICS Major->Phd

And last Tuesday, I told everyone , it am to save lives...
I initially implied Medicine as my career to be... but then again... I'm having my millionth thought on it now!

Creating free energy and minimising energy loss or maybe even creating machines to travel in the speed of ligt could answer a lot of questions in humanity...and eventually save lives???

Watched History Channel's Universe series yesterday.... haha...Physics and I are like two old lovers "unattended" yet unforgettable to each other, where your heart just thrives for it again (wei, not like I know how that really feels....)
I was really thrilled watching that episode, on light as the speed limit to the universe {being exhausted from PA 2 paper and MATHS T paper 2 ,I knock off towards the last quarter of the show}

And once again, Physics as part of my future was back into the question. Sigh.{NOT AGAIN!!!!!}

I seriously do not know whether I should leave the rest of my life to a flip or a coin(heads for physics and tails for medcine)
but then there is this strong belief I have that follow your heart even when it is against all odds... and like wat Confucius once said :
"Wheresoever you go, go with all your heart.

Both are fields slightly in parallel , and both are something I really want to do.
Unfortunately, it is not like a double degree of Maths and physics or music and physics or even law and physics[all possible prospects of what I want and "can" be]... becoming a doctor is like doing 3 degrees at once, that much of commitment and hard work, it can't involve the rest of science as it has too much of it already.
The only reason I disregarded in becoming a researcher/lecturer/professor in physics was because, I could not really picture myself only sitting in a lab, sipping coffee while marking papers or collecting the data from computers and super machines as a life routine...

My peers, family and friends and "comrades" certainly know I am not the kind that stands still!...
Where is my heart telling me to go?

Perhaps someday, I'll treat you for ailment(hopefully not a chronic one or never need to treat u at all) . or
maybe, one day your grandchild will read of my discovery and curse me for coming up with such a theory and all those twisting forumalae.
But I will never know till then.

"All growth is a leap in the dark, a spontaneous unpremeditated act without benefit of experience. "
~ Henry Miller~

Monday, 11 May 2009

The Flu

I'm not the average blog to write a journal type... honestly, sometimes I find a total waste of time and effort(seemingly, very few people actually read all of it).
I'm sitting here, staring bankly at the speakers of the PC , stupidly expecting a favourite song of mine to play at random.
Exams are on next week, and well, I AM BLOGGING!!!!!
Yikes... its mainly because I have come up with this terrible allergy reaction and am barely able to do anything else(very unlike my usual reactions)
It is cold yet it is terribly hot... guess I have fallen sick after sooooo long .

That then reminds me, I still have my unwritten speech for the World Young Women's Forum.... ARGH!
more frustrations right?
I started of quarter of the speech but there is just too much to write for a 6 minute speech.
Darn !

Other than my dear oral trainer at school, well, there is not much support otherwise.

Talking about best friend is "uncomfortable" with us texting almost daily... OI! we have been doing it for almost forever!!?! It is not my fault he hasn't been studying nor is he even near being prepared for his exams. I lost track of the countless number of times that I have actually nagged him on and on about him studying and that don't procrastinate and all that crap.
Yea, crap...
because, to tell you the truth ... procrastinating has become quite a part of my life lately as well....

Frustrations, well, they have always been there, and I am proud to tell you that I do keep my distance from it. It happens to be a bad friend... and I don't like keeping bad friends ;)

Haha... talking about bad friends.... my dear closiez and so called BFFS..... where on earth are you all?
Let me be frank, I am tired of being the first one to call or email or even find out if you all are down.... Surprisingly it is , I'm at home in the place we all grew up and there is no courtesey of any sort for you to let me know?!?!
I have given up... if you want to maintain a friendship, please do it so as well... it works two ways you know... everything does..
Its too exhausting for only one person to keep tabs at all times. Despite the fact that I may be a little busy when you are back, well, i will and so would any one else, appreciate a short call or a sweet message from you,or maybe a surprise drop by at my place.Its courteousy !

And, finally to courteousy.... like what I mentioned on the first of this year... what on earth is people with impersonal messages in wishing for a special occasion or so. Yesterday was Mother's day... If you want to wish a mother, call them larr! Or send a kind,sweet , NON FORWARDING NON SEND-TO-MANY text message. Must mobile phones and tele-communication ethiques become something thought in the school too!?!?!?!

Anyway, I don't believe in the 2nd Sundays of May being mother's day... its meant to be everyday... I think its plainly another commercial event for Memory Lane and giant corps to rander money out of our gradually shrinking pockets!
(I rather make my o0wn gifts and me stingy or anything, but my loved ones who get it , actually love it!)

So in the end, our actions are shown from what is in our hearts...

[i'm wheezing already now... off to sleep again i guess... and its not even 8 pm]

These words I've put into digital ones and zeroes, may just be the flu speaking(an effective excuse eh?)
or probably something that has been too long buried at the bottom of my heart and mind....

More words soon( forseeing a few more frustrations) ;)

Hey, don't go thinking that I am a sadist type or just emo, I'll post any exciting, interesting and HAPPY goss or stories and experiences ASAP!

Tuesday, 5 May 2009

Simple Together

a piece that I found really meaningful and I think Alanis has really put in deep emotions into the simplest of words.
Thank you, Alanis Morissette.

Simple Together

D A D (A)
You've been my golden best friend
D A G (A)
Now with post-demise at hand

Can't go to you for consolation

`Cause we're off limits during this transition

This grief overwhelms me
It burns in my stomach
D Bm A
And I can't stop bumping into things

I thought we'd be simple together

I thought we'd be happy together

Thought we'd be limitless together
I thought we'd be precious together
But I was sadly mistaken

D A D (A)
You've been my soulmate and then some
D A G (A)
I remembered you the moment I met you

With you I knew god's face was handsome

With you I suffered an expansion

This loss is numbing me
It pierces my chest
D Bm A
And I can't stop dropping everything

I thought we'd be sexy together

Thought we'd be evolving together

I thought we'd have children together

I thought we'd be family together

But I was sadly mistaken

If I had a bill for all the philosophies I shared

If I had a penny for all the possibilities I presented

If I had a dime for every hand thrown up in the air

My wealth would render this no less severe

I thought we'd be genius together

I thought we'd be healing together

I thought we'd be growing together

Thought we'd be adventurous together
But I was sadly mistaken

Thought we'd be exploring together

Thought we'd be inspired together

I thought we'd be flying together

Thought we'd be on fire together
But I was sadly mistaken

Monday, 4 May 2009

Not Knowing Me

This is a story of a girl who enjoys getting herself into challenges, boggle her mind and impart risks as her middle name.
It has been five years since she first felt this way.
And three years since it had made her little heart ache.

In continuation to my previous blog(the undone one), I have found this very meaningful poem by an anonymous person.
It makes a lot of sense, and its to those who think they actually know the meaning of it, well, darn, think again!

To laugh is to risk appearing the fool.
To weep is to risk appearing sentimental.
To reach for another is to risk involvement.
To expose your ideas, your dreams,
before a crowd is to risk their loss.
To love is to risk not being loved in return.
To live is to risk dying.
To believe is to risk despair.
To try is to risk failure.
But risks must be taken, because the
greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing.
The people who risk nothing, do nothing,
have nothing, are nothing.
They may avoid suffering and sorrow,
but they cannot learn, feel, change,
grow, love, live.
Chained by their attitudes they are slaves;
they have forfeited their freedom.
Only a person who risks is free.

From you I have learned; i have known how painful failure can really be.At least in the end of the day, I can always tell myself that I somewhat tried to make it better. Some what tried to make it happen, despite for the number of weeks that I felt as if the world was about to come to an end. Or the fact that before this, there was once I thought I had every splendour at the tips of my fingers. You made me realise, something that I had for a long time forgotten, that you can't always get what you want. And that makes you appreciate for all the wonderful things in life.

I spilled my deepest thoughts to you. Shared my philosophies in life , presented my best ... but I realised I actually stopped trying to impress you anymore. I've been absolutely myself around you. Perhaps , we remain best of pals for now.

Live to the utmost best for all the challenges we are to face. I'll be here for you, always,as I know you to will be around to catch me if I fall. This relationship we have, has its own uniqueness that only you and I will ever understand.
Thank you for being there for me .

No, it doesn't end here, I have one tiny doubt that haunts me in my sleep.It is that if you really need me ? And do you actually know the face of this girl you call your best friend.... We have our own secrets, the fewest that we have not shared. And the stories you have told me , the pain you have shared with me, and the encouragement I have always tried my best to give to you.... Do you not sense that most of the time, I feel like you do not really appreciate it....and there are times, when a cloud of emotion hits me, revealing that perhaps you do not really know me.

I take risks, my dearest friend, I have always...
Taken the roughest roads and made the most difficult choices.
Climbed many mountains and swam across seas.
Most of the time, they were my choices...solely mine,
and I did very frequently choose the path that was less travelled. But for you to have said those words the other day, I thought to myself , "Does he really understand me the best?".... I missed that old friend I had in you, who gave it all, didn't mind its consequences and actually had a great time together.

Once again, I make a choice,instead of the one that many people would make to look for another. I choose to take the one that was grassy and wanted wear.

Therefore, im really free.
Irony is all part of life.

Friday, 3 April 2009

Saturday, 28 February 2009

the Constituition we swear upon.

How far does freedom of speech allow us to actually break out of this concrete shell??

Article 10

Main article: Article 10 of the Constitution of Malaysia

Article 10 (1) guarantees the freedom of speech, the right to assemble peacefully and the right to form associations to every Malaysian citizen. However, Parliament may by law impose restrictions on these rights in the interest of the security of the Federation, friendly relations with other countries, public order, morality; and restrictions designed to protect the privileges of Parliament, to provide against contempt of court, defamation, or incitement to any offence.

Article 10 is a key provision of Part II of the Constitution, and has been regarded as "of paramount importance" by the judicial community in Malaysia. However, it has been argued that the rights of Part II, in particular Article 10, "have been so heavily qualified by other parts of the Constitution, for example, Part XI in relation to special and emergency powers, and the permanent state of emergency that has existed since 1969, that much of [the Constitution's] high principles are lost."[5]

Article 10 (4) states that Parliament may pass law prohibiting the questioning of any matter, right, status, position, privilege, sovereignty or prerogative established or protected by the provisions of Part III, article 152, 153 or 181 of the constitution.

Several acts of law regulate the freedoms granted by Article 10, such as the Official Secrets Act, which makes it a crime to disseminate information classified as an official secret.

The Sedition Act 1948 makes it an offence to engage in acts with a "seditious tendency", including but not limited to the spoken word and publications; conviction may result in a sentence of a fine up to RM5,000, three years in jail, or both.

The Public Order (Preservation) Ordinance 1958 allows the Police to declare certain areas "restricted", and to regulate processions or meetings of five persons or more. The maximum sentence for the violation of a restricted area order is imprisonment of 10 years and whipping.[6]

Other laws curtailing the freedoms of Article 10 are the Police Act 1967, which criminalises the gathering of three or more people in a public place without a licence, and the Printing Presses and Publications Act 1984, which grants the Home Affairs Minister "absolute discretion" in the granting and revoking of publishing permits, and also makes it a criminal offense to possess a printing press without a licence.[7]

The Sedition Act in particular has been widely commented upon by jurists for the bounds it places on freedom of speech. Justice Raja Azlan Shah (later the Yang di-Pertuan Agong) once said:

“ The right to free speech ceases at the point where it comes within the mischief of the Sedition Act.[8]

[well, we love being special, and this is such special freedom of speech...that it nearly contradicts the soul of a human right!!!]

Saturday, 21 February 2009


Wrote this over a year ago.... Actually I wanted it copyrighted or something first. But, well.... here it goes
[for you SND]

COME HOME –aletha Kavindra-


Sitting by the seaside


Waiting for you


Facing the blue sky


Where are you ?

G Cadd7

I know you’ll come home soon


But this absence of you


Is killing me.


Looking for the white star


That we’d gaze and see

Em7 Dsus4



Wishing upon a shooting star


So I don’t have to be

Dsus4 Em7

Here without you


Sweet love come home


I need you right now

Em7 Dsus4

The most


Your arms to hold me up

Em7 Dsus4

from this wretched storm

Your words to keep my

Head up high

Your dear smile

I need so much when cry

Please don’t make me sing this song



Sweet love come home